Returning back from lunch today, I glanced at this park to my left side. I remember this park for it was my comfort in my yesterday. Years back when I was broken and trying to make sense of hurts that I had experienced, I would visit this park. I noticed something, this park looked smaller today but back then it looked so big. My problems were big, at least this is what the enemy wanted me to believe. Tears begin to roll down my face. I felt so full in the inside. I was not sad, my eyes filled with tears that were of joy. Although, I was riding in my car alone, I said out loud, this is the park I used to visit on my lunch hour. Interesting, I had not driven down this street for years. Thinking, what made me drive down this street today? Today was a day that I needed to reflect. The holy spirit whispered, “Vicki, you are better.”
There were days that I did not spend my lunch eating; however, I spent my lunch thinking. My thoughts then were. “How do I stop processing these thoughts that permeated my mind?” The enemy gets us stuck in negative thought patterns which is one of his clever designs to keep us trapped from living a greater live. I realized now that thinking was the way that I processed getting through my dark days. Thinking was how I processed how life looked for me at the time. Thinking now is how I see God’s plan for my life is so beautiful.
My thoughts today as I drove past this park was, I’m so thankful that I am much better than I was yesterday. Thank you Jesus for healing me.